On the other side of beyond, she sits like a ragdoll in a daze as two of heavens watchers approach her. They introduce her to some special news ~ she’s to write a ‘letter from heaven’. They then tell her she is going to be allowed a visitation and whilst gathering all this information to the front of her mind, she knows the hardest part for her, is going to be seeing her parents and siblings, suffer the devastating effects of being told their daughter is dead... The story unfolds through the eyes of an innocent girl’s journey. She knows she’s being given a golden opportunity, so needs to write words of comfort, with exact tone, to help her grieving family come to terms and hopefully make sense of a senseless act of inhumanity...
I’ve been softly advised that the very moment I open my eyes
I’ll see my mother, It’s also been explained, that unfortunately she will be
extremely sad, and worse still, won’t be able to see me.
So for what seems like an eternity, I stand in the same spot
with eyes closed, too terrified to move a muscle ... The whole of my being
screams silently into the darkness. I very much want to see, however, I know
seeing my mother won’t fix the world, squeezing my eyes tighter, I feel huge
tears slide out from between closed eyelashes; escaping quickly they cascade
like a waterfall. As I fully open damp eyes, there she sits on her sofa, crying
big deep, harsh, guttural sobs from utter despair. My heart thumps to witness
her agony, but what hurts more is I know the situation will disintegrate
completely, once my family know what’s really happened. It’s as if for now,
time stands still... Sitting there in her own stillness, I’m so sensitively
aware she’s unknowing and completely oblivious to my plight, she isn’t aware
that I’m dead... In her world I’m missing, but quite shockingly I’ve passed over,
and for now my family think I’m simply missing.
(3 hours previously)
I’m reeling from the shock of landing so suddenly slap/bang in a new
world...
You can imagine how overwhelmingly confused I am. Once here, I meet two people who introduce
themselves as Watchers, Mary and
Dylan. Taking in the new occupants, I can’t help but sense a fine vibration of the
most beautiful musical sound; I’ve ever heard softly playing in the background.
The background is a pulsating colour of cream ’n’ lemon. I can’t see anything
specific, all I feel is a hazy, comfortable warmth, and all I see in this
creamy lemon new world, is grey like shadows, as if I’m being observed, but strangely
I don’t make out any other figures.
Mary looks comforting though, like she’s someone’s mum; her
reassuring manner immediately puts me at ease. She confirms what’s happened to
me. Miserably I whisper how much I wish I’d listened to my mum’s advice. Dylan,
who looked like a clean cut, boy band member, quickly advises... even if you’d
done that, it would not have made any difference at all, it would simply have
taken longer in terms of time.
Sitting under the gaze of what seems like two very nice
people, my heart instinctively realises taking the short cut through such a
badly lit, remote place was a crazy, stupid thing to do.
I heard his footsteps, I saw his shadow, but horrendously he
was on me before I knew what was happening. When I fell forward my head hit a
large rock; initially I was thankfully knocked out, so didn’t witness or feel
the appalling things he carried out... I recall briefly coming around, and felt
pressure on top of me, my eyes opened which I know must have startled him; he
obviously thought I was already dead. For a split second I remember the gut
wrenching horror of it all, and then as his right arm cruelly slam’s down into
my already broken head, it’s over, I am gone, finished, kaput...
Breaking into this mind-blowing moment, Mary’s maternal hand
reached out, she tells me not to dwell on what’s happened. She further says,
this is the way it’s meant to be, and the reason will become clear. Dylan
smiles, comments on my bravery, and then grandly proclaims, the good news is... for the first time ever, ever, ever you are going to be allowed to return home, to
see your mother, and during that short time, you’ll get the opportunity to
write a letter... The letter will be marked,
‘A Letter From Heaven’ We’ve been told you can write whatever you
want, and this will be a first important step that will give you and your
family closure to the horrific way you left your earth family. It will also
give your mother and family much needed reassurance.
(3 hours later)
Unable to move, I stand still for what seems like forever. Magically I’m surrounded by all that use to
be so familiar. The distressing sounds of my mother’s tears break my heart, but
I know I have to use this golden opportunity to the best of my ability. I
couldn’t help but wonder why of all people they chose little old me to send
this very special letter from heaven.
I’m thankful, and know clearly I have to get this right.
Yes of course I’m sad my life’s been cut short, after all
I’m only 16 years old, but it’s strange, don’t ask me how I know, but I know the
person responsible will get caught, he won’t hurt another living being, because
during his captivity, something accidental is going to happen, and he’ll no
longer be in the land of the living. All my knowledge, my senses tumble in on
me... this is truly unbelievable, but I know this is my fate, my end, my
beginning and yes even my future.
Tentative, I step towards my mother; I watch has she seemingly
stirs to my presence, it’s then I hear the front door. My father, looks as if his life-force has been
mechanically drained from him, he shuffles in flanked by three ashen faced police
officers.
Don’t ask me why, but I start to count... One, two, three,
four, five, six, seven, sixth sense advices me to leave the room. Back pressed firmly
against the lounge door, I shake as I hear my mother scream. Deep breath, I need
to be mindful of time and the task in hand.
In my room I sit with hands and face pressed gently against
an ageless desk... whilst feeling the coolness from its wood, I sense almost
overwhelming, horrifying details of my demise, as they’re being given to my
parents. I hear the front door go again; in rush my brothers and then, an
appalling slice of silence like crushed ice embraces the property.
Sitting still, tightly grasping heaven’s silver pen between
my fingers, I start my letter.
To my beautiful family,
When you read this, I know you won’t
be able to comprehend the thought, that for us the impossible has happened. I’m
still in shock myself, but sadly I know you won’t be able to confirm with me,
how it’s been made amazingly possible for me to communicate with you from
beyond this life. Despite the unimaginable, I’m sat in my room composing this
lifeline of a letter, whilst you’re all downstairs being given the terrible news
that I’ve been horrifically taken away from you.
Mum please forgive me, I’m so sorry I
went home that way after drama class ,I know you always tell me the right thing
to do, how I wish with all my heart I’d listened... The people I’ve met on the
other side, tell me, even if I‘d listened, my end would have happened at some point...
it seems we all have a time, and a place... Mine’s up, I’m needed elsewhere.
The purpose to this letter is to assist
us all if possible and help us come to terms with what’s happened... for me its
proof of what I always suspected but never knew for sure... I’ll miss you all
so much; my heart is breaking because I can still hear your cries. I need to
share with you that my passing over was quick; I didn’t feel anything, except the
pain of knowing I’d never be with you again.
Please do not waste any time going
over the worry of what ‘s‘ happened, I am ok, and even though I don’t want to
leave you, I am ready to move forward to see what heaven has in store for me...
I met a lady called Mary, she told me it will all become clear, mum, dad it
already has, I know life is for living, it’s also for learning and with you as
my family, I’ve been blessed to learn lots... I will leave you with this, the
person who hurt me, won’t hurt anyone else. You will all be ok and mum, you
were the best mum ever, I don’t want any of you to worry, and if you do, you
will only end up holding me back. Please take are and remember always how much
I love you all. I have to go now Mary and Dylan have come; your cries are
subsiding so I feel I can leave... Thank you for everything especially your
love, I will take that to heaven with me and treasure it always.
If you want me just call, if I can, I
will turn back just so I can let you know I am well. Please mum, don’t cry, you
know I get upset when you do. One last thing, Dylan is telling me, when you read this it will bring you both a mixture of peace and joy, if you show anyone else , all they’ll see, are empty pages.... that’s the beauty of heaven, it’s magical.
Love you Mum and Dad, Love you Gary an Ian ... One last thing mum, Mary just told me your going to have another baby, a girl ... Wow, I really must come back for that.
xxxx
I
re-read to ensure I’d told them everything... my heart
is full, I'm warm. Mary and Dylan stand quite close. I
Smile.
"Thank you for giving me this wonderful opportunity"
I take my letter, I repeatedly kiss the kisses... I
breathe in my lasting words, words and thoughts my family will get to read and
hopefully understand. I feel an
enormous pull on not wanting to leave, and whilst I promise myself never to
forget this moment, I lay the letter flat on my dressing table... Silence
permeates my room.
“May I say goodbye?”
Smiles widen in acknowledgement.
I leave to say a final farewell, and for the first time I
get a real sense of what I’m actually preparing to do. Stepping into the
familiar lounge I see a sight that I know will never leave me, all my family lovingly
huddled together in a tight group...
Mary and Dylan take a hand each, and as we move towards the
next world,
I tearfully whisper... Goodbye.
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