Learn... Grow... Transform... We are all different... For me, it’s so incredibly important to be able to understand everything, including myself... It’s so important to know where I’ve come from and very importantly, where I’m going... With all that knowledge, I will feel safe knowing I’m doing my very best to embrace all that I am, and all that I will become.
Very strange day with a real sense of everything becoming extremely profound, probably due to how I’m feeling... (Neither up nor down) just balanced (for once) they do say that sometimes, thoughts and things, brings a certain equilibrium to the melting pot. The deeper I become, the more I sense those thoughts clearly ... But, for once, I’d like to keep my thoughts focused on a much calmer, more light hearted approach to how I feel...
Errmmm... (I smile) wondering, is that at all possible? ~ I’m not sure, come on let’s see, I do promise you that I’ll try!
Today two thoughts have figured strongly on what I see as my road to recovery... The first for some strange reaso, is that I’ve been remembering people who’ve figured very strongly in my life... particularly, people who are no longer around, they were here, but now they’ve gone... I'll add hastily... not necessarily to the other side! ;-) I don’t mind sharing with you that some of those people I truly loved, but I sit here content in the strong belief that they loved me just as much, and I wonder if thoughts on them today have been more a thread of wishful thinking, in terms of wishing they were still around. I suppose this has a lot to do with what I’m going through, however, I'm not saying I’m unhappy with the people who are in my life at present... not at all... just thoughts tumbling around whilst I speak out loud... which by the way I think I’m getting pretty good at, and funnily enough, these tumbling thoughts magically enable me to heal little ~ by little...
This brings me to the second part of those thoughts... the reflection, that we should never be too quick to discount the effect that those around have on us, our time and our space... this also has to include the impact that our own presence has on the lives of those around us. Sometimes I physically shudder when I suddenly see the whole picture... but on this occasion I gladly observe that even the person who sits in the corner unable to take part for whatever reason, even they have an effect on people in the room... We all encompass the potential to have an immense impact on other people... So I never personally take it for granted that the person who walks into my life, won’t be important... hence the picture and statement above...
'When the student is ready ~ the teacher will appear’
Today I spent quite some time thinking about what had gone before, and what it meant to me... Tomorrow I pray that my heart will no longer hang on to closed doors and ghostly images. I will be encouraged to let go gently, so that beautiful memories will help and be instrumental when I step closer to a bright future...
Before I close, I’d like to take this wonderful opportunity to count all previous relationships and people as blessings, and then further wish those that are no longer in my life the very best of love, happiness and peace... Then looking out to all of you who are still in my life, I’d like to pray in wander and say ‘I love you all and I am so truthfully thankful that you are still with me’
Namaste.....
Dear Jane, what a lovely jumble and ramble...a stream of consciousness! For a great part of my earlier years, I struggle mightily with people leaving. Not through death - that is something I'm familiar with, and although it's a different challenge to come to peace with, it's one that eventually I can find that space of thought. The other, when loved ones move on, is the one that caused me a great deal of pain.
ReplyDeleteAs you and I shared on my own blog, with age comes wisdom. I recognize now that we are not always meant to have people around for a lifetime. People come into our lives to teach us something, always. At times that lesson lasts a lifetime, but more often, it is for a shorter duration. I have accepted this and am much more able to bid farewell without experiencing such sharp sadness as I used to. In addition, I have learned that the fullness of time occasionally brings some of those bright loved ones back into our orbit. It has happened to me a small number of times, and each moment is beautiful.
We all do, think, say, feel as we are capable at that moment. It might not always makes sense, or feel good to receive it at the time, but eventually it makes sense. We heal, we accept and we move forward, changed in some profound manner.
My, what a lovely moment you've given me!
Much love to you, my darling girl. <3
- Dawnie
Dawn thank you so much for visiting and leaving a breath of fresh air in your wake... I always love to hear other people’s perspectives, for me, it always puts something especially magical into my blog, I feel sad sometimes that I don’t seem to stir up enough interest to communicate much more with many more...
ReplyDeleteI think when I wrote this, I was trying to express that people who have left me, if not through death, are people I actually didn’t want to let go of, but unfortunately we all know life doesn’t work like that and as you so eloquently put.... Quote’ we are not always meant to have people around for a lifetime. People come into our lives to teach us something, always. At times that lesson lasts a lifetime, but more often, it is for a shorter duration’ Unquote ~ <3
I totally identify with your thoughts, I just feel it’s a shame not to be able to stay friends or maintain a connection without it being a big deal... Life is short and when someone has been a great friend and brought something into your life that you weren’t expecting then it’s so sad that we have to lose something so precious... Oh if life were only that simple!
I hope to give many more lovely moments, because I for one am in the middle of looking for something... like Julia Roberts in Eat, Love, Pray I truly intend to find it...
Big hug Sister... Love u lots!